So, After remembering I had a LJ...

I thought, why don't I just put my random creative wannabe writing on here. So, 1) I can keep track of what I write and not lose it in my hard drive and 2) Just make my life easier.

I am a complicated person, I over think and over do when it comes to writing. I can't quite ever finish any of my work, do to my inner editor and over thinking that I tend to rewrite one part over and over again until i don't like it.

Anyways.

Thanks to the ever wonderful Joy, I've gotten some ideas of how I could improve my writing- and hopefully have her be my mentor on the subject because you is the ever so talented story teller of my life. And because of her I really am wondering if I could pull off a Master's degree in Creative Writing. Honestly, I've been putting off the idea but actually taking the advise of ..well older advises I think I should tone my writing skills. Maybe I do have a chance of being a decent writer.

So, I want to just write out of the blue and form there get ideas of what I can harness from that piece and make a story. I hope I can keep up with it, I do need guidance and someone to poke my ribs every time I slack.

Here's to a start, hopefully on the right foot.

It's 10:01pm...

I'm beyond bored and have been bugging random journals whenever I got the chance! That's how lame I am.

I went to pick up my friend and her dad, took them to the Police station, had a talk with her. Then to the towing place, got her car out, took them back to their home, went to my home...was hungry as hell. Mom was already there, I got on my computer to do some research and read... Take my mom to buy water, and groceries for dinner (she forgot to take out the food from the freezer).

Mom wants to bake a cake for father's day... on Saturday. Then she came to the conclusion that, if she makes it on Saturday, my father will find it... sneak about the house... then eat the cake before Father's day. Which is true, and we should all feel the same way. Then she said it might be good to make some Langosta for dad? I don't know... I'm just afraid my dad will find it and sneak off with both the dishes.

In other words, I got back home, kept reading... Watched youtube videos because.. well I got sent some! Ms. Swan from MadTv is awesome, I forgot about her. The parody of Umbrella was gooooood as well.. Under Barrack Obama! I have to admit, it did tickle my funny bone.

I talked to Ben as well, asked how my potato plant was doing... I preceded to explain that there was an evil threat that is out to seek the life force of my sweet potato plant. My sister. She already killed two stems and has told much negative words to my plant... She does this to bug me! Yes... I'm geeky, I talk to my plant. It has actually grown pretttty long. I'll put photos up later.

Anyways, Then i went to pick up my friend from work (the one from the morning) and she had told me, " If you go past 4th you've gone to far." And well, being the dummy that I am, I was on the freeway and the exit came up... No, not Miliken (the one I'm suppose to get off on) but 4th!!! So I panicked and got off on 4th, I called her she said that Miliken came up way after 4th and she had meant if I was on the streets not to go past 4th! Dork... Yes I am! Either way, I put on my thinking hat and found her. So .. hooray for me!

There's probably a lot more things, I just can't remember... I still feel weird and just plain old bad. Also, I keep thinking about him- he just keeps popping out in my head.. from random faces on msn from other friends, to the songs in my mp3 player... Gawd I wish I could just forget!!! hah. oh well!

I have to write my final, damn it... I am procrastinating!! Help! Help! someone Help!

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**Video Related... Sorta?***

So this is my first post.


I don't know what to say, or what not to say. I'm pretty tired right now, I just got home- went to see a friends. Her car got taken away, and she didn't have her license- so I'm going to have to go get her car tomorrow at 830. That should be fun? I gave her boyfriend a ride to his apartment, he gives me the creeps sometimes. Not to mention his pupils were diluted, so ... yeah you know where I'm going from this. He's a nice guy but has brought so much trouble!! I don't even want to get started, if not I'll be going on and on about it.

There's a huge pain on the right side of my neck and shoulder that has come and gone like the sun in California. It's almost always there now for the past week or so, but when it goes away... it only lasts  a little until it comes back and bites me.

I've tried not to think of that boy that has me hanging by a thread, but even making this LJ has a theme to it. It sucks, I know, but I have no other choice. I've done what I can do, and well I ended up fucking it up. I wrote to him and I've not gotten a respond... he must be really pissed off at me. I know he'll never write back, but it was worth a try. Now there really is nothing I can do, it's all up to him. Though, I'm hoping not to see him if I go to the movies with my guy friends. I can only hope!! It would be too embarrassing to see him again, half of the time I've seen him, I've been so intimidating by him. I know it was my fault, I feel really bad, but in the long run I didn't mean half of the things I said and the other half... well I did. Most of the damage I did wasn't towards him, but towards another friend. How could I see his face again? There's nothing more pathetic than someone who gets their hopes up knowing that they would not act upon it because of circumstances that dove in between the paths. I know if he wouldn't have shown up the second time, none of this wouldn't have happened. He wouldn't have been there to meet her, my other friend wouldn't have caused drama... Yet at the same time I wouldn't have bonded with him and I wouldn't have had those kisses... drunk or not, game or not. They meant nothing, honestly, but the first one did- which was before that incident. I guess it won't make sense unless I categorize them by their day's but then again I don't mean to make much sense, I never will.

Anyways! In other news, a friend of my wrote to the girl he is crushing on, to make a long story short... He got a response back today! It was all he expected, and I'm really glad. We both went through similar things at the same time but his situation is much better- And I'm glad he's happy. Unfortunately, he feels guilty because that means that another boy is going to get the boot. All I can say is that, the girl made a decision, and I'm glad the boy isn't his friend. Though I do admire that he feels guilty and responsible, it shows he does care- though he got the girl- he isn't heartless.

Tomorrow I was suppose to go to six flags... But I guess I'm not. We're going a week from tomorrow. Let's hope I don't fall off the roller coaster and kill one of the people on the ground!!! I honestly Don't want to go, I mean yeah its fun and what not but eh... I have my reasons. My friend does, and well I'd feel bad if I said no...  So I guess I'm going. heh.

I should start packing already, but eh... I'm a lazy bum. We're going to move in two weeks I believe; when my sisters get out of school, which either way wont make a difference since three days later ( on Monday) they go back to school. Which means that I'll be driving back and forth and back and forth, that's going to drive me nuts. I also have to find a job!!!! this is really going to suck, a lot. I mean, not the job part but the finding a job that will be flexible to my schedule of taking and picking up my sister. (God, I'm getting a headache just by thinking about it.)

Enough of my rambling on, all I have to say is that... This isn't going to last very long!! I tend to just stop writing sooner or later on journals... I get bored of them, but I am going to try my best.

Today has been an interesting day. I had fun overall though, thanks to a Joyous person whom I love so much!!!

 I have tons of things to do, and FINALS!!! Not to mention Papers to write. This week seems like its going to be interesting...



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